We started to build our ideals when we were kids. Most of us, I assumed, wanted to be teachers, nurses and doctors. Growing up with my mom and grandmother who both know how to sew clothes, I was partly influenced to be a designer (although I admit I first wanted to be a doctor) and make people’s clothes. I even dreamed of becoming a model until I realized I am stuck with this height. This dream career was hyped up when I entered high school. I gained friends who dress really well and whose sense of fashion I really adore.

This dream of mine did not crash into ashes as I grew older. One of my professors in college and even colleagues would even compliment my sense of fashion. More so, at that point in time, I knew I would not land on that career. Not sooner than I wanted.

“Nothing is impossible when you want to achieve something” holds true to my case. Since we are in a technological age where everything seems impossible, I found ways to practice my passion in fashion.

Websites like http://looklet.com/ and http://lookbook.nu/ provided avenues for wanna-be fashion designers and models to strut off their style without the existence of those paparazzi and catwalk. These sites encouraged people like me to  expose their creativity and meet people with the same preferences.

Social networking sites also provide for this need. There exist such applications like Sorority Girl and Coco Girl which, although a bit childish, allows users to design the clothes of their avatars.

For some people like me, these applications and websites are not just mere games but avenues to vent out fashion prowess. For some, it may be an avenue just to show off all those non-sense things. Whatever it is that people think, this just shows that we are in the age where everything can be one-click away. Knowing how these tools can help us depends on our ability to discern and interpret.

It is a matter of choices and decisions.

And luckily, my passion for passion goes on!

I heard gossips. I participated in some. I have even been part of those talked-about behind-my-back. I know. It is normal. What is the use of these? What will it generate after? Fame? Fun? Or just nothing?

The Anatomy of Buzz by Emanuel Rosen tells us what buzz is, how it came to be in this world of ours and how people can generate more of it for the company’s sake.

Buzz grows like virus. It grows as fast as the length gossips make to reach the people on the other end of the world. Thinking about how it spreads seems easy, doing what to buzz is the difficult part.

Creating the right message to the right audience in the right time is the key to a successful and organically generated buzz. This will ensure that the message will get across people the way you want it and people will share the message because they want it and they find the message either relevant or entertaining. Since people has the natural instinct to just talk about anything at almost anytime, it would be no problem if you have THE MESSAGE.

Companies mostly participate in generating buzz for their success or for the product’s success. It is important to note that customers, when gained positive experience from using the product or service, will most likely buzz about it because they believe in it.

When one believes in something, it will entice other people to do the same thing. The buzz will serve as a magnet that keeps on attracting other people to join, like and share it.

How will we able to sustain the buzz generating?

Do not give it all! Ironic, huh? But that is the key! Generating and sustaining buzz means partly exciting the people by giving them limited amount of those talked-about things.

Well! Gossiping can be a way to generate buzz if the message is something relevant. It can help a company generate a buzz for itself. It can, however, create bad publicity if not used correctly.

So buzz right, and you will see!

When I was born twenty three years ago, the world witnessed the birth of one of the OrCommunicologists . I was not prepared to land on where I am now but I am happy because I have been part of a revolution where I play as the soldier with communication as my weapon.

I witnessed how technology rapidly changed the way society works. I saw the shift in power from the use of beepers to mobile phones and then to the wonderfully-crafted Internet. It may seemed old school but the changes happened so fast that it made me wonder what will happen a few years from now.

The advent of technology crafted the way people communicate with one another. It changed our way of living and it changed how we behave. Certainly, the changes directly affects the interaction of people with its surrounding.

Being knowledgeable about these things, I realized the changes pose responsibilities to me as a citizen of this world. 

The age of the Internet gave me a bird’s eye view of the dynamism of communication and behavior of people. It does not necessarily imposes people to use it, but the innate attraction gives people the urge to use it for whatever purposes it can give them.

As an OrCommunicologist, playing in this realm makes it more understandable to me why people make a fuzz out of something. It gives me the fuller view of how people behave, of how organizations behave and how these two interact. It is a world way different from the offline world. The Internet gave people the almost impossible world that we imagined way back, when there was still the existence of beepers and “ancient” gadgets.

And as much as we could do to the Internet, people should note that they are still who they are even if the Internet gives them all the power to conceal their identity. Being responsible creatures of this world, whatever there is that the world offers we should accept and take as a promising world to live at.

I was checking my old blog, when I found this old post that I wrote for mother's day:

I've read a quote on the internet saying something like this...  

"Motherhood is learning about strenghts you didn't know you had, and dealing with fears you didn't know existed." 

When my daughter was conceived, although we had planned about this for a year, I did not have the confidence if I could be a perfect mom. Now she is already going to be 3 years old this December and I am still not confident if I am doing things right. You see, at her age she is still not talking like those kids her age and her doctor said she is delayed by more than 6 months. The moment I noticed and knew, I became so worried and feared what if my child has a disorder.. Maybe it has been my fault.. the things I did or did not do.. If only this, and that.. But then I realized, this was the moment to be a real mother to my daughter. I would try to do the things that will help her, yet if the day came that she will be diagnosed of having a disorder, then I will be here and support her until she needs me. I may make mistakes along the way, but God knows I live for my daughter's happiness and safety. I could not be a perfect mom but I can be a good mom. 

Now my daughter is 4 years old. She is still not officially diagnosed, but she is currently enrolled at a school for special kids. Her teachers say she is most likely to have mild autism.
I see her improvements and strengths - she knows the alphabet and could write it depending on her mood, she knows numbers in both English and Japanese, and could write it too, she also knows half of Hiragana. She knows how to operate my phone, her tablet, and our PC since she was about 2yo. She memorises things that she loves especially songs that she loves, very quickly. She has a very good sense of rhythm and a good ear for pitch and tones. She could tell what she wants, and I could have simple conversation with her now. She of course could also be asked to do something for me. Since she grew up to be an independent girl, she could eat alone neatly, go to the toilet alone, and she also likes to pick her own clothes to wear, and dress up on her own, which I find cute and annoying at the same time especially during those days when we do not have enough time.
Recently, she has 3 "alaga", Mell-chan (the doll with pink hair who she can take to bath with), Popo-Chan (her first ever doll), Kuma-san (my pink bear that I got from a friend way back.) whom she takes care of.

She makes her 3 alaga sleep in the sofa, like this!

She doesn't know this, but she also takes care of mommy, whenever she asks me if I'm fine and rubs my arms or head whenever she feels that I feel that I'm not well.. Yup. she's the sweetest. ;)

She just have some delays that is mostly connected with speech...  and, is VERY emotional. She is a fun-loving girl, but is very sensitive and tend to cry a lot whenever there is something that is bothering her. She is also very attached to me, that I cannot go anywhere without her even in the toilet. LOL.

Now there are a lot of opinions regarding my daughter, and some people might see my child as spoiled, but hey, those are the ignorant and insensitive ones who knows nothing and perhaps does not even try to be on that person shoes at any case of their lives so I am starting to learn to ignore those kind of people. (oops sorry ;p)
Most people I know would tell me that it is alright, may be it is just a phase. Some might also not understand as to why I say as her own mother that she has autism even when she is still not officially diagnosed yet. Although I understand them, I know my child more than anyone else. I could deny the fact. It may somehow ease pain, but that would not help her in any way. I feel pain whenever I think about it but then I came to the point that denying or hiding the truth would not make me feel any better either. My job right now is to raise my daughter to be a happy adult, train her to be the best that she could be, enjoy and be proud of the little steps that she is certainly taking to move high forward.


I may not be a perfect mom, but she is the perfect daughter for me. She lights up the days of people that loves her like sunshine (proud to say that some of her teachers describes her that way) and I wouldn't trade her for the world. God knows I'd literally die without her now. :)

Our Easter Sunday Celebration started with me cooking Lasagna.

My first try was a fail, because the white sauce was also a fail that time.

Now thanks to my super easy white sauce recipe, my 2nd try was a success! I just added 2 tablespoons of cream cheese to the original recipe. 

I made my meat sauce the night before, so all I did was the white sauce, cook the pasta, and put them all in the dish and bake!

Then we went to hear Mass at the St. Mary's Cathedral in Tamatsukuri. There were a lot people since it is Easter Sunday. I also loved that I knew all the songs that was sang. I remember my high school choir days. :)

This is actually the church that the husband and I went to when we're still dating.
Oh well, those we're the days. LOL. Kidding aside, I really love it here.
Just too bad it is so far from our house now.

Say hello to the 23 year old me!

I look at the sky to dream (don't I just love this word!)

I look at the sky to believe.

I look at the sky to be grounded.

I look at the sky to just look at the clouds.